So now the docs have found a growth on my heart and lesions on my brain. I'm so angry! I'm angry at the doc that told me I was too healthy to be seen by a rheumetologist. I'm angry at my mom for not paying attention to the litle cues to my illness when I was a kid. I'm angry because everyone keeps treating me like it's not that bad and it could be worse. Can't someone just look at me and say that sucks. I'd be pissed off also. Why don't you take a few days to feel sorry for yourself. Cry as much as you need to. I wont ask what's wrong. It should be obvious I've been dealt a shitty hand. I'm tired of trying to be thankful that I'm not worse. I'll do better I just need to be sad.
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